Memorial Wall

Our loved ones are gone far too soon by suicide and/or outcomes from marijuana use or other substance use that started with marijuana. We honor their beautiful memories and bring them into the light to increase awareness and decrease stigma. We link our arms in solidarity to educate parents and youth about substance abuse, mental health, and suicide prevention. Marijuana is not harmless! We are testimonies of the great tragedy of marijuana use. On the date of death of each loved one, we will post this memorial on the Johnny’s Ambassadors Facebook page to honor and remember him/her.


If you have lost a loved one due to marijuana outcomes, please email their photo, full name, your name(s) as you want it listed, birth date, death date, and a 75-word tribute (refer to examples below) to [email protected].


In Honor of John Kenneth Stack (Johnny) by Laura and John Stack
2/7/00 – 11/20/19

Johnny was a happy, funny, handsome, intelligent young man. He loved animals, video games, the beach, his friends, and his family. He was a brown belt in karate, ran cross country, grew up in youth group, and played the piano and guitar. His values were altruism, patience, conviction, enthusiasm, and gratitude. He graduated high school with honors and a college scholarship and planned to be a computer programmer until he developed delusion from doing THC dabs.
Johnny’s Ambassadors was founded in memory of Johnny Stack.

In Honor of Dillon Andrew Blodgett by Adriene Leonard
5/25/92 – 01/23/16

Dillon was a kind-hearted soul who loved his family, his kitty, Ophelia, and his many friends. He generously assisted others in need of a helping hand and someone to lean on. He was happiest engaging in his favorite outdoors activities: snowboarding, skateboarding, and photographing the Colorado mountains, landscapes, flowers, and action shots of friends skateboarding, snowboarding, and playing in bands. His goal was to be a professional photographer.

In Honor of Charles Aubrey Rogers by Anne Moss Rogers
4/26/95-06/05/15

Charles Aubrey Rogers was the funniest, most popular kid in school. He was complex, adorable, frustrating, effervescent, charming, eccentric, and a creative genius. When he waltzed in, faces brightened, bodies turned toward him like he brought the sunshine in his pocket and he was there to hand it out. He lived with ADHD, a sleep disorder, depression, anxiety, and finally a heroin addiction, which was a contributing factor to his suicide at age 20.

In Honor of Andrew Steven Zorn (Andy) by Sally Schindel
10/15/82 – 3/1/14
Andy was a fun guy full of dreams and plans. At age 9, he announced plans to serve in the military to earn a college degree, which he did. Andy was first a paratrooper with Army’s 82nd Airborne, and then he earned an AA degree. He planned to be a millionaire by age 40 and started his IRA retirement savings at age 16. Sadly, severe Cannabis Use Disorder derailed him and robbed him of all he had accomplished.

In Honor of Matthew Gordon Pontefract by Wendy Pontefract
11/29/99 – 3/31/20
My beautiful, sweet, sensitive boy loved everyone and wanted to be loved and accepted by everyone. Matthew was bright (he was especially good in math) and creative. He loved animals and spending time with friends. He grew into a beautiful, fit young man, who was the starting center on the football team and a participant in drama productions. We love him still and miss him terribly. Rest in peace my sweet young man.

In Honor of Chris Cowan by David J. Cowan
4/23/71 – 1/21/00
Chris was an outstanding high school student, co-captain of the wrestling team, and president of the student council. As a senior, he received the American History prize; the best peace essay; a national scholastic writing award; the best math student award; AP Calculus award for the highest score; and the Student Leadership award. He enrolled at Stanford at the age of 17. To be one of the boys, he started smoking marijuana, which led to paranoid schizophrenia and resulted in suicide.

In Honor of Ryan Gardiner Dow by Ray Dow
11/17/01 – 08/07/18

Ryan was a fun, smart, creative person. He was a loving son, brother, and friend. He loved animals, especially his cats and his pet bird, Cheech. Ryan enjoyed playing the guitar, skiing, and spending time with his friends. Ryan toured University of Denver just days before he died and planned to attend there. He wanted to work in the music industry. We don’t know why Ryan decided to take his own life. He is loved and missed by many.

In Honor of Joel Jonathan Belmer by Kathy Cooperman
9/28/77 – 2/20/15

Joel will always be remembered as a happy, funny, creative, and charismatic young man. I still call him my teddy bear. He loved Colorado and the mountains. He loved the company that he created, “O Dog Adventures.” He was happily married and loved his entire family. He enjoyed helping others and volunteered as a wrestling coach for the Special Olympics for years. Joel truly made the world a better place, and I’m so proud to be his mom.

In Honor of Aaron Anil Reddy by Raj and Anita Reddy
7/25/00 – 3/27/19

Aaron was a gentle, kind hearted, fun and loving soul. He loved his family, pets, playing video games, going out to restaurants and watching movies. He also had a brilliant mind as a conservative young business man.  He graduated from a blue-ribbon magnet high school where he was a member of the Future Business Leaders of America. He was an accounting major in college and wanted to become a certified public accountant.  

In Honor of Kevin Bright by Bart and Hazel Bright
2/10/89 – 8/14/18

Kevin was an intelligent and sensitive child. He was loved and lovable. Kevin was also witty and displayed a great sense of humor. He enjoyed playing the piano for many years. As a teenager Kevin struggled with depression and anxiety. He worked hard to overcome his challenges and self medicated, at times, with high THC marijuana. The last six years of his life Kevin increased his marijuana use and eventually took his life at 29 years old. We love and miss him everyday.

In Honor of Garrett Reilly Craig by Jay Craig
3/2/00 – 1/12/19

Garrett was a brilliant young man with endless opportunity before him. His path ended in his suicide at 18 years old after a descent into high-potency marijuana use. Garrett had many interests and many friends. Garrett and I met for lunch a few days before he died. After lunch, we hugged, and I said, “I love you.” In his usual quiet mumble, Garrett replied, “Luv ya.” Thank you, God, for that moment. 

In Honor of Ben Shealy by Ray and Suzanne Shealy
4/5/99 – 5/19/20

Growing up Ben was full of energy, had a great sense of humor, loved basketball, gaming on his computer, cars and technology. His sister, brother and friends would always count on Ben to entertain and make things amusing. However, when Ben started to self-medicate his problems during his early years of high school, things started to spiral down quickly. As we later discovered, this led to weekly, sometimes daily, weed use for the next 3-4 years. Then he started smoking and dabbing high concentration THC weed. Ben was running across the lanes on Interstate 5 in Laguna Hills and was killed by a semi truck.

In Honor of Brian Patnode by Patricia Patnode
3/8/02 to 7/16/19

Brian was 17 going into his senior year when he passed from suicide. He was very smart, got high grades, and received awards for his academic efforts. He had a wonderful voice and was very involved in choir, as well as many school plays and musicals. He played football for the first time his junior year and was the only male in his class to be in the National Honors Society. No one would have guessed he was depressed, as he had many friends. Sadly he started self-medicating with marijuana, which led him down a bad path. He is missed by all.

In Honor of Brent Anthony Bernhardt by Heather Curzon
1/28/96 – 7/15/21

Brent was a quiet young man with a very kind heart and soul. He loved his family, animals & nature and especially his dogs. He enjoyed many outdoor activities like hunting, fishing, hiking, camping, kayaking, and boating. He was also an avid gamer and enjoyed laser tag and paintball. Brent struggled with depression for years, which led him at an early age to experiment and self-medicate with marijuana. In the last two years of his marijuana use, he began to exhibit signs consistent with drug-induced psychosis (confirmed by diagnosis), which ultimately led to Brent’s suicide at the age of 25. We all miss him so much and always will.

In Honor of Henry Gordon MacDougall by Gordon MacDougall
3/2/01 – 10/7/17

Henry was the kind of kid that connected with everyone. It didn’t matter what group or clique they belonged to, Henry found a way to relate through his sense of humor and bright smile. He died in an automobile accident at age 16 after being given highly concentrated marijuana dabs at a friend’s house. So many were truly devastated by his death, because he truly meant something to so many different people.

In Honor of Trevor London Leopold by Michelle Saevke Leopold
1/30/01 – 11/17/19

Trevor London Leopold was a loving human being with a huge heart, which he willingly shared with so many others. From an early age, Trevor loved animals. As an elementary student, he was an avid rockhound, nature detective, and even a certified Audubon Junior Birdwatcher. He was an Indian Guide, Cub Scout and Boy Scout, played little league and a lifelong avid skier, snowboarder, and skateboarder. All of the wonderful blessings that he had, talent, friendships, positive outlook on life, and most importantly, family, were sidelined by his decision to take a drug, most likely laced with fentanyl, after battling cannabis use disorder for several years.

In Honor of Neal Jansen Honka by Tom and Nancy Honka
4/21/96 to 9/26/16

Neal was fun-loving, easy going, and adventurous; he had a great laugh and smile and was an instant friend to all he met. He loved any sport with a board and was an amazing athlete. He talked often of becoming a neuropsychologist so he could, in his own words, “end suffering in others.”  Neal was someone who was always checking on everyone else. He had a heart of gold.

In Honor of Tyler J Southard by Sharon Southard
2/25/94 – 7/28/18

Tyler loved skateboarding, drawing, painting, and was a talented musician. After graduating, he worked for a computer company, but his dream was to write songs, and be a full time musician. Unfortunately, he wouldn’t achieve his dreams because his marijuana addiction turned into psychosis, and early stages of schizophrenia. Tyler died by suicide, at 24. He hated his marijuana addiction, and was trying hard to beat it on his own.

In Honor of Jacob Brian Gorman by Sherri Gorman
6/10/01 – 11/2/21

Jacob was a quiet soul and Eagle Scout who loved camping, hiking, video games, and his friends.  He graduated high school with honors and served 7 months in the Navy.  Once out, he took great pride in buying his own condo at the age of 19.  The choice to medicate with marijuana ultimately led to delusions/paranoia and contributed to his suicide at the age of 20.  He is loved and missed every day.

In Honor of Joshua Jimenez by Sonia Jimenez
6/27/99 – 12/23/21

Joshua was gifted in too many ways to count; academically, mathematically, artistically, but his greatest gift was his sweet and loving heart. He was truly a beautiful light in the world, and he will be missed forever. His life had value and meaning and great impact to those who loved him. And although his absence will be felt deeply, we know that he is at peace.

In Honor of Randy Michael Bacchus III by Heather and Randy Bacchus
11/9/99 – 7/17/21

Randy Michael was bright, creative, humorous, fun-loving, kind-hearted, and generous. He enjoyed skiing, exercising, friends, and music. He wanted to attend the University of Boulder, scuba dive, have his own business, children, and a wife. Fiercely independent, Randy moved to CO at 18. He finished one year of community college, supported himself, created and developed two companies. We wish we could have seen all that he was capable of. Unfortunately, he was addicted to marijuana, developed CIP, and took his own life. RIP Randy. We love you.

In Honor of Katee Gene Ferguson by Nelson and Amanda Bohrer
12/20/97 – 5/28/20

Katee spent the majority of her life in Deer Lodge, Montana. She married Colton Ferguson in July 2018, and they had two sons, James Ferguson, 3, and Sebastian Ferguson, 1. Katee was an authentic friend to everyone. She had a magnetic personality that lit up any room. Her contagious smile was warm and inviting. She was very caring and giving. Katee had many talents and passions, including crocheting, painting, quilting, and scrapbooking. She is dearly missed by many.